Crapola

Yup, that is what I felt like. I read something today that made me feel like a fool. Again. Like an idiot. Maybe I didn't understand it the right way, maybe I did. Maybe someone is trying to tell me something that I don't want to hear. But I would rather hear it now than later, if it is how I understood. It would save me a lot. The truth is something that I want, but maybe I can't handle it. At least not all at once. Or maybe it is all a misunderstanding. Maybe it is not all about me. *gasp* God, please help me see things clearly and for what they are!!!